A voice inside keeps repeating,

You’ll never have this opportunity again.

Title or first line sets precedent.

Pride is my sin, even with low self-esteem.


I remember severe pain

sitting at table

with head collapsed

on folded arms.


God sat across table from me,

asking, “Who do you think you are?”

I froze, forgot how to talk.

When I looked up, the thought was gone.


I recognize pattern within myself,

where I fall prey

to someone who may or may not

take advantage of me.


I grow anxious, fearful, needing to be released.

In childhood, my younger sister ran to my side,

but years of therapy freed her of that job.

I still return to pattern, frantic, self-destructive,


worthless feeling, with no one to rescue, nurture me.

You may wonder about my allure to my ex

and other damaged women I’ve loved.

Now you know, I’m fucked-up.


Unseasoned, I scribbled, “If the peanut butter

isn’t streaked with jelly smears,

than you’re living too anal-retentive and proper a life.”

I realize my younger self wouldn’t like older self.


Enough about me, let’s talk about you.

What’s it like being a Siamese twin?

Are two heads really better than one?

When one of you finds a lover, what does the other do?


Do you look away? Close your eyes? Stare?

Who’s in charge of money?

Ok, I didn’t mean to get off on the wrong foot.

So you’re not actually a Siamese twin?


Seeing double is my problem, oh god.

Tonight my sister wrote,

“I begin to understand the mystery of life,

the moment unfolding, to harshness


and softness of just one moment, 

so dear, to haunt you for desiring more.”

The moon tonight, thin sharp slice set on spine

in western sky. A miracle, that’s what I think.


You’ll never have this opportunity again.




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Comment by JMac1949 Today on March 28, 2013 at 4:04pm

Forgive me for being so literal for this is my own strange take on this post.   I'm struck with the image that two conjoined twins might choose the pretense to live completely separate lives and communicate through letters or notes... excellent post.  R&L

Comment by Michael Reid Rubenstein on March 28, 2013 at 6:32pm

JMac1949, you knock me out. thank you


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