Im waiting to see who comes to stay in this tent tonite.  When I pulled into my little space a lady from the Volcano House was setting it up with big fluffy pillows and a cooler and a guy from the house brought over a big foam mattress.  It is all set up for the richies. 

   I am not jealous...oh, maybe I envy two people who get to sleep together and snuggle.  I have my wonderful 'set up in a minute tent' and an inch and a half thick memory foam pad for my pleasure and I count myself very lucky.  Last time my daughter and I camped here together.  Now I am here on top of the volcano all by myself. Im checking out the town of Volcano which has lots of cheap houses and some really nice ones too.  Taking a break from the daughters' houses.

 I miss having someone to talk to and snuggle with.  I wonder where the Richie couple is right now as the sun sets and others in this campground have arrived early to get a spot and settle in.  I bet they are having a magnificent dinner at the Volcano Lodge looking out at the glow of the spouting lava.  I wonder if they will have someone drive them out here and drop them off at the tent.  How many glasses of wine will they have at dinner?   Will their suitcases be with them?  Will they sleep naked?

  This is my little tent and my blue car waiting for me as I climbed the back hill and looked out over the volcano valley.   The crater is in the other direction and maybe tomorrow I will go over there.  I have a senior pass now.  Old.  I am old and lonely.  No one to talk to.  I ditched two rich guys back in San Diego who I know would have taken good care of me if I would have wanted them to.  I just didn't feel close to them and enjoy talking to their conservative minds so I guess I would rather be alone. Are the people coming to sleep in the fancy tent Republicans?  I bet they are.  I bet she is blonde and high maintenance beautiful and he is rugged.  She is probably pretending to like camping because he does...oh I can come up with all sorts of nasty stories.  Envy isn't pretty.

  I guess I mentioned that I am lonely.  This isn't something new.  I was feeling isolated in San Diego and actually enjoyed my peace and quiet life with no one to compromise with.   I can do what I want when I want and if I want to type on the internet while the sun is setting on my little camp spot I can and there is no one to complain about what I am doing.  No one.   Good.  I have come from my oldest daughter's house where her boyfriend has quit drinking and they seem to be settling in to raise Petunia in a wholesome manner.  Good.  They talk now without arguing all the time and it is a vast improvement.   I don't know what the future will bring but without the devil alcohol it looks better. 

     So here I am writing and waiting for the rich people to arrive at the tent.   It is seven pm and there is no sign of them.   Sure is peaceful here.  Ill be here tomorrow night too.   Ill let you know what develops.   Thanks for being there to talk to in the cyberworld.  Ive been talking to the birds all day and they are starting to make lots of sense.  I guess anyone camping by themselves on the top of a volcano has a right to feel lonely.  I just noticed the big full moon coming up and I don't feel alone anymore.  The moon is good company.

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Comment by JMac1949 Memories on June 2, 2015 at 11:03pm

I talk to hummingbirds... R&L ;-)

Comment by Julie Johnson on June 3, 2015 at 4:27am

Anna and I were out walking in the neighborhood last night, and saw that same moon from half a world away.  R&L

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Comment by Claudia Darling on June 3, 2015 at 5:31am
Well, I like reading your thoughts, Zanelle. I'm sorry you feel lonely, but I think it's better to be alone than with a person you don't connect with.
Comment by alsoknownas on June 3, 2015 at 7:18am


I had a friend who explained living alone by saying, "I'd rather live alone than spend my life wishing I did."

He went off grid entirely about three yearsago. We've lost connection and for all I know he's dead by now.

Comment by Jerry DeNuccio on June 3, 2015 at 8:25am

Its fun sometimes imagining what, as Huck Finn calls them, the "better sort" are up to.  I don't envy them: I suspect that their lives, like all lives, are filled with ordinary experiences, with an everydayness that connects them to everyone else.  I like your point about how being alone frees one from all expectations except our own.  You get to play yourself as you lie.  The word "lonely" has negative connotations, but it doesn't have to be negative.

Comment by vzn on June 3, 2015 at 3:46pm

thx for sharing. why dont you try Tinder lol :p ... am half serious here. have you ever tried online dating?

Comment by vzn on June 3, 2015 at 3:47pm

ps written from a "open office" cube. a sort of opposite of what youre experiencing. speaking of "envy" wink. 

Comment by koshersalaami on June 3, 2015 at 4:00pm

You'll figure out company when you figure out where you're living. I'm sorry you're alone at the moment. 

Your speculation about your temporary neighbors is funny. 

Tune in to tonight's episode of Beverly Hills Tent. 

Comment by Kenneth Sibbett on June 3, 2015 at 4:15pm

I'm so sorry you are all alone. I'd bet you are a great conversationalist (especially if you are a liberal) I could not stand to converse for long periods of time with dye-hard conservatives either. I know one day your White Knight will ride up and take you away. Or, you might just turn a corner, and there he will be. Peace & Love my friend~~ 


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