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Is happening, right now.  Has been decided, but I just don't know.  There's the elections, the protesting going on where I grew up, and then my oldest son. 

I've typed and deleted, and typed and deleted, typed and deleted every morning now, for the last 4 months.  Here, there, everywhere.  It's out there.  An hour every morning, to where I almost feel like I could do this as a 'job'. It's damn sure not 'art'. 

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Here it is, a week later and not one thing of those three listed above has turned out the way I thought it would, and prepared for. I saw the signs, but ignored them.  I can't help but wonder, what else am I missing? 

I look towards the internet for a bit of guidance, it's never failed me before, right?  ha!  

Actually, I take that back. I've 'met' some very good and kind and interesting people online, a meeting of the minds, and for that I'm thankful.  Also, it rained during the night. Not enough to put out any fires, but at least it settled the dust a bit here in town. 

Still reading along, and peeking thru the windows..

 

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Comment by Zanelle on November 19, 2016 at 5:45am

Peeking back at you!!!  I am fighting a nauseous feeling about the last few months too.  It feels so wrong that so many support the new administration.  They say for us to buck up and all get along but it makes me want to be in m lIy own bubble and help the few people I know.   Thanks for reaching out through the void to say Hi....

Comment by JMac1949 Today on November 19, 2016 at 6:30am

R&L, love the doll.

Comment by Dharmabummer on November 19, 2016 at 8:01am

That photograph is haunting! 

Comment by alsoknownas on November 19, 2016 at 8:03am

The fewer the expectations, the fewer the disappointments.

Comment by M. C. Sears on November 19, 2016 at 8:12am

Tough times never last, on the other hand tough folks do.  Hang in there kiddo.

Comment by koshersalaami on November 19, 2016 at 8:46am

Bucking up and accepting this would be morally wrong.

Bucking up and opposing it would not.

There is no waiting to see what will happen. We already know way too much about what will happen and all of it's bad. 

Comment by Rosigami on November 19, 2016 at 9:05am

Awww Julie. The part that hits me is the brief mention of your son. Be as strong as you can, and lean on folks who are there for you. I care.

Comment by Foolish Monkey on November 19, 2016 at 10:02am

life comes in waves, some days beautiful refreshing waves and some days I almost drown in it, there's so much weighing me down.   we're going through a low tide now, with much debris washing up.  it feels strange.  it evem smells strange......I can see shadows on bright autumn days... 

I am struck by that doll...and then there's the somber face in the mirror. 

remember: nothing is forever.  the tides change.  I'm wishing good things for you JJ...peace, contentment, love.  I'm always happy to see you've written something... giant hug to you.

Comment by Anna Herrington on November 19, 2016 at 1:34pm

The composition of this photo is just fantastic - seriously good. I keep looking....

Your posts usually have me more curious and mystified than I was before I start reading, it's hard to write about real life, personally, who might get offended, what is saying too much. I say too much in comment half the time and don't even bother to write half the posts I think of...

Was looking at my own photos this morning and wondering where it all went, the bright summer dawns, drunken bees coated in pollen, color, life.... all blown away on the wind, with blackberry brambles left as the only green. A dreary green, too, this time of year.

The wind is blowing cold.

Feels like the world.

Hope you're not choking on smoke. My brother in TN said it wasn't too bad his way. We were so lucky this summer, just a few photos of smoky skies left but nothing in the air this year that dropped down and covered everything like it can some years. Yay!

It can be so debilitating, wildfire smoke.

....Thinking of you and your son.

Find myself also thinking it'd be great to sit and chat about sons and their goings ons, not a chat for the online world, though, all three would be furious with me. Can't have that...

(Carole and I get together and chat about sons and other things, sometimes, laugh, commiserate - somehow I think of you doing the same with us, fitting right in. Funny how online friendships go. She and I transitioned to 3D world, took some time and space for both of us, glad we are sticking with it, though.) 

I became a hermit living here in our town, I have learned I'm good in a city or in a rural area, not so much right in a small town. Everyone in everyone's bizness, can't stand it. I work at home and hike in the wilderness, hang out with animals and lots of family, locally, most of my friends not in this town, we chat by phone, email, send things instead. Nothing too involved, sounds closer written than I mean it to.

Take care Julie and again, you have a good eye for photography turned art, if that's one you took.

 : )

Comment by Julie Johnson on November 19, 2016 at 3:14pm

Thank you, guys!  I hadn't typed much here these past few months and more than half of what I have, I've deleted.  I don't know why I do that, but I always have with most of my words.  Even the ones on paper, I used to save to burn in the campfire, eventually.  But not before reading and rereading and thinking and putting into my heart what you all have shared with me, and others.  You all have been good friends, as good as any I've got in 3D. 

I've mostly found the comments to be as good or better than the posts. 

That is a picture I took, with the tablet.  Sort of funny, I always try to put mirrors across the wall from windows to open up space but my youngest son laughs at me, 'cause he says all it does is multiply the clutter. 

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