The nazi next-door (words i never thought i would type) had all of his doors & windows open early this morning. I was outside gardening and I was able to catch bits & pieces of the loud conversation he was having with his wife. The words "our people" made me do something I rarely do; pay attention to the neighbors. I could only catch the most emphatically stated bits... words like "fucking mexicans" & "manipulative jews" and the one thing I heard and could agree with: "Our people haven't succeeded because we're too stupid..." and then something about "not making as many babies as fast as..." someone.

They've been my neighbors for over a year now, yet last week was the first time I noticed the SS lightning bolts on his knuckles. I have been wondering how I missed it for this long. When he & his wife moved in, I liked them well enough at first casual glance (and I do specifically try NOT to be too friendly with neighbors), but then I began to find him too...something...too aggressive? But they were friendly enough & we weren't exactly spinning in the same circles. I have a kid his age.

I don't know what I am feeling about all of this right now. Not the nazi, I'm quite clear on how I feel about nazis . No, I'm feeling something akin to shame. Something I am not proud of. Because as I look back, all the signs were there. I mean how did I miss that all of his friends are tattooed, bald, white guys? That when he lifts weights on his porch he plays angry punk music? The black boots with the white laces... how did I not connect those dots into even suspicion?

Intellectually i know this is my white privilege showing, but emotionally? well...i think I need to feel this shame for a minute. I need to remember the pain of it, and maybe next time the light bulb above my head will turn on sooner.
Meanwhile, my next-door neighbor is a nazi & I'm not sure what that means for me. For today, it means I am blasting this as I finish my gardening:

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Comment by marilyn sands on August 20, 2017 at 12:56pm

(Shivers) A little too close for me.  Good luck in any & all encounters. Great music.  Thanks.  

Comment by Safe Bet's Amy on August 20, 2017 at 1:03pm

Well, I think it is your own fault for buying that bunker from Göring Reality.  

Comment by lorianne on August 20, 2017 at 1:12pm

Marilyn - me too.

Amy - NOW ya tell me! Actually, when we moved in there was  sweet old hippie dude next-door.

Comment by koshersalaami on August 20, 2017 at 1:23pm

Shame at being naive and not looking for your neighbor to be a Nazi? Most of us don't.

Comment by greenheron on August 20, 2017 at 1:34pm

When I was a kid my next door neighbor was not a Nazi, but she was mean and used to yell at me and my friends if she thought we had crossed her property line when we were outside playing. We let her know that we did not appreciate her anti-children politics by using several methods:

1. filled her mailbox up with mud.

2. taped a naked doll that was missing an arm to her front lamppost.

3. made her a cup of coffee out of dog poo mixed with water and left it on her doorstep.

She came over to complain about the doll, but my parents didn’t recognize the doll because it was my friend’s and I denied everything.

Never in a million years would your neighbors suspect that the pleasant older lady next door filled their mailbox to the brim with mud. Also, you’d be ruining their nasty Nazi mail.

Comment by lorianne on August 20, 2017 at 2:06pm

Kosh - the shame is that I really didn't have to look...it was right in my face.  I'm ok with this discomfort. I SHOULD be uncomfortable about being blind to what doesn't directly impact me. Discomfort = movement & thats good.

greenheron!  i love that story, and funny because I was wondering if there were enough scorpions around the property to fill their mailbox... but then I worried about the mailperson.

Comment by greenheron on August 20, 2017 at 2:20pm

scorpions!! We would have been so bad if we were friends when we were growing up :)

But yes, the mailman must be considered. To ruin their mail with mud, one would have to wait until the mail had been delivered. Living next door, one would notice when they left to do errands or go to work (ugh where do Nazis work?), then quickly tend to business and still have time to get back on the porch and resume knitting a baby blanket. They will never suspect!! 

Comment by Ron Powell on August 20, 2017 at 2:45pm

If you were a black person you would have noticed. Noticing is in our survival DNA.

That plus the fact they/he would have made it impossible for you to not take notice and take heed....

Comment by Ron Powell on August 20, 2017 at 2:52pm

@Greenie;  "To ruin their mail with mud, one would have to wait until the mail had been delivered."

That would be a federal crime...

No Nazi is worth that kind of trouble...

"...where do Nazis work?"

Pretty much anwhere where real thought and "other" people aren't involved...

Comment by greenheron on August 20, 2017 at 4:21pm

Federal crime? They’d have to prove it first! Lorianne would just turn on her nice sweet lady smile and melt all suspicion away. Meanwhile, in a Tupperware container under the kitchen sink, SCORPIONS!

On second thought, Lorianne maybe lead with the scorpions. This is one of those one chance deals. Do something twice and they’ll know it’s you. Do it once and they can only suspect. Also put some scorpions in your own mailbox and loudly curse the sick person who would do such a thing. 

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