I have been so down this weekend, not suicidal but totally hopeless. I read a post yesterday on symptoms of fibromyalgia that people find embarrassing and found out that a lot of things that have been bugging me are attributable to that disorder. Does this mean that I am stuck with the body odor and sleeping all weekend forever? I surely hope not.

I took to Facebook, as I do sometimes in extremis, and posted on the astrology page that I was feeling down. The post currently has 117 comments, some of them me replying to posts but mostly from the awesome people in that group. They like me! It turns out that there are people there who count on me to lift them up when they are down. Who knew.

I'm a little better now than I was at 9:00 this morning, but not by much. I have completed my Sunday chores though I haven't done anything with the spare room that I was going to start organizing this weekend, and putting stuff aside to get rid of. I am taking my victories, though, in what I did get done.

The other thing I am going to do is actually start looking for a new job. I was going to work on updating my information in the H.R. website, and still can after I finish this. I want to find a job that's 30-35 hours a week instead of 40, I am so tired of using all of my energy to go to a job that leaves me no energy to do anything else. I hope that by cutting my hours I can get some of my joie back. I can't do it where I'm at because my new boss thinks that I need to sit on my thumbs waiting for an emergency to happen. He's also trying to put obstacles in the path of my potential service dog  after blocking me from attending classes. Keep in mind that this is the guy who wrote my letter of recommendation to get approved for the dog; apparently he didn't factor in me bringing it to work. I am now very sorry that I suggested to him to run for this job. The "good" news is that it's not just me that he's doing this to, the secretary who just got her Masters is being harassed because he knows she's looking for a job. Her faculty are trying to get him to expand her job to pull in her new skills and he's refusing, and asking her whenever he sees her for her job description so he can be ready to post it when she leaves. I'm pretty sure that's not legal. I suggested another person for her faculty to talk to, we'll see if that goes anywhere.

I am still getting through this one minute at a time. I'm practicing a habit of successful people and trying to only touch stuff once, which has helped me a lot at work. I had a backlog on my desk at work that was smothering me and I've gotten it down to one more big task. I'm doing it mostly with my mail at home but I still have stacks of stuff to sort. I did find the two gift certificates that I got for Christmas at work and I will be inserting the Amazon certificate into my account to keep it safe. I will need to find someone who likes Starbucks for the other on, although there is a Starbucks on my way home now, I could use it for snacks to get me through getting off of work and getting home. No drinks, though, those things are too hot to deal with while driving. They gave me $20 this year! They are a generous couple as they give these cards to several people.

I do feel better now, I've had some soup and took some generic Excedrin and gotten some things out in writing here. That always feels better. I wish there was a way to never have a depressive episode again.

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Comment by Phyllis on February 13, 2018 at 7:10am

Anna, thanks for commenting, that's all the help we depressives need, as you know. A new job will perk me up for a while, and let me see if I have the impetus to actually do all of the stuff I keep saying that I want to do.

Comment by Phyllis on February 13, 2018 at 7:10am

Hi Kosh!

Comment by Phyllis on February 13, 2018 at 7:11am

Thank you, Kosh!

Comment by Phyllis on February 13, 2018 at 7:11am

Isn't it though, Kosh?

Comment by Phyllis on February 13, 2018 at 7:12am

And I am taking your suggestion to individually reply to all comments!

Comment by Phyllis on February 13, 2018 at 7:15am

Ron, I think 9 is a good day's work around here. It's nice that we have this private playground.

Comment by Phyllis on February 13, 2018 at 7:16am

Monkey, we can!

Comment by Phyllis on February 13, 2018 at 7:22am

Ha ha! This is number 28!

Comment by Phyllis on February 18, 2018 at 1:45pm

greenie, there just happens to be a part time administrative assistant position open in the horticulture department. :) Now if I could settle in to doing the resume...

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