Anxiety is at a new high for me. I am experiencing many of the same physical symptoms I had when I was pre- and post- divorce. During those years, pharma helped, but I'm not going down that road again.

I have to make some changes in my life, like staying away from the news except for headlines these days. I get the gist, don't worry, but discussion seems fruitless and has become very upsetting.

About a week or so ago, I wrote to every single sitting US Senator. It took me 3 days. I reminded them that they represent not just their own State but as a body, the whole country. I encouraged them to take measures to stop the chaos that is this POTUS and work on removing him by invoking the 25th Amendment.
It made me feel good to do it.
I got a couple form letters back saying they didn't communicate with people who weren't their constituents. I thought that was just rude. 
Mostly, I seem to just have gotten on mailing lists (when given the option I said NO every time, but I don't think that got read, either)
So now I hear from Ted Cruz like every day.  :: makes strangling sounds in back of throat ::

My life is good, otherwise, and I'm really okay. I have a life partner who is truly that in every way. We enjoy each other's company, and we spend a lot of time together. We have a beautiful home, and lack for nothing of necessity. Neither of us is particularly acquisitive and we like things simple. We have a band, and we perform a few times a month. The BLP has been retired from the workplace since before I met him, and he spends a lot of time on music and woodworking projects. (He's almost finished with the music studio he's building on a piece of our land behind the house. It's fucking gorgeous! Post to come when it's all done.)

And, I paint. I have been doing quite a bit of that. It feels so good to get lost in the process and emerge at some point later, calmer and more centered. It's become a necessary thing in my life.  If there are a bunch of days when I can't get into the studio, I can feel myself getting cranky. 

This latest painting is called Sentinal. There is a little beach at the foot of the Tacoma-Narrows Bridge on the West side, in a tiny jewel of a park that is a little hard to find but worth the trip. The high tide comes almost to the trunks of the deciduous trees along the edge, and the beachfront, such as it is, is dotted with fallen and bleached trees.
The one in my picture still stands watch. 

                                                     Sentinel  (c) Rose Guastella 2017  Oils on canvas, 16" x 20"

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Comment by marilyn sands on August 26, 2017 at 3:36pm

If that's in Oils - that's amazing!  Good for you contacting all the Senators - let's hope your letter is the one!  R&L

Comment by alsoknownas on August 26, 2017 at 3:59pm

You could break bricks with that hard head of yours.

Every Senator?


Comment by greenheron on August 26, 2017 at 4:15pm

I hear you. Same with me. I can’t take in more than a few news stories. It feels like contemplating room temperature deli meats when suffering with stomach flu. Everyone seems angry and on edge, and conversations aren’t conversations, they’re rants. I met a friend for lunch at a new restaurant the other day. We’d been waiting for this restaurant to open for nearly three months, and ended up talking about the state of the union the whole time, hardly noticing the yummy food, or each other, what was going on in our lives. I’ve lived thru Nixon and Bush and don’t remember things being anything like this.

I call and email my politicians and get all their spam now too. Everyone in Mass are progressive libruls though, so I don't know what good it does. Elizabeth Warren has done a lot of yelling already. You are a good citizen, writing all those letters. 

See? We both just spent a paragraph of time focused on the grimness of politics. How about that new painting?! You are getting to be the mastress of the ripple in still water. I like your title too. Last year, I read a wonderful book about tree communication. Trees that appear dead sometimes are communicating with surrounding trees, who send them nutrients and medicine, especially if they are related. Maybe your sentinel tree is getting some of that care. 

I am utterly in love with the giant gingko who lives in my backyard. I have a picture of him in 1945–he was really big then too. He’s actually two trees that grew into one. In the 1945 picture, you can still see him as two trees about an inch apart. I draw him all the time. Trees are good companions when you need some soothing.   

Comment by Rosigami on August 26, 2017 at 5:05pm

Marilyn, they probably just put me into the nutbar file. oh well. Thanks!

Comment by Rosigami on August 26, 2017 at 5:08pm

alsoknownas, I really did. Only two would not even accept an email from a non-constituent. Connecticut Senator Richard Blumenthal (D) and Iowa Senator Joni Ernst (R). There are buttheads on both sides, apparently. 

Comment by Rosigami on August 26, 2017 at 5:10pm

greenie, I know!  It's practically impossible not to get caught up in all the crapola. I love painting water. It's getting a little easier. (you noticed! Thank you.)

Comment by Jonathan Wolfman on August 26, 2017 at 5:50pm


Comment by Rosigami on August 26, 2017 at 7:03pm

Hi Jon! :)

Comment by DaisyJane on August 27, 2017 at 1:41pm

Beautiful painting. And anyone who seeks mental wellness has to avoid the news.  Strong work, Rosi - all the way around.

Comment by Rosigami on August 27, 2017 at 2:12pm

Thanks, DJ. It's really great to see you here- I've missed you! 


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