Caution: Writers at play

Five years ago I was stock.

And I expected to remain so. Then I got hit by a car and I got cancer. More than my body was injured – my sense of who I am was scrambled. I had told people, “I’m lucky. I don’t get sick. I heal up when I’m injured.” I hadn’t earned it. It was just luck. My parents are alive in their 90's. They don’t have artificial joints. They didn’t get breast cancer. I expected my luck continue. Thinking of myself without my luck is weird.

In an earlier era, without surgery, I’d have been in a wheelchair by now (thanks to my damaged hip), or dead (thanks to breast cancer). So, I have a different kind of luck.

At my recent exam, I found myself in an odd conversation with my hip replacement surgeon who was curious about the numb area on my thigh. He said, “It’s only been 3 years. Sensation might return.”

I told him, “I don’t think I do that. My shoulder is still numb from the collar bone repair. My chest is still numb where my breast was removed.”

I saw him repress a micro-smile. Then he said, “We used to cut muscles when we replaced the hip. Now we bruise the nerves.”

I’d say my muscles are more important than my skin sensation. I’m in much better shape than my grandmother was after she got her hip replaced. Much of this is due to my amazing physical therapist. But numbness is still a loss.

It’s still weird to think of myself as part machinery, to look at myself in the mirror and see all the scars. To know when my husband’s hand is on my shoulder but I can’t feel it. Not the warmth or the touch.

I’m also still riding my bike, taking my dog for long walks, enjoying my mobility.

Now, it looks like there may be a surgery free way to replace hips (using stem cells): http://www.emoryhealthcare.org/sports-medicine/procedures/advanced-...

And stem cells are also being used to grow new breast tissue: http://www.lef.org/magazine/mag2011/dec2011_Suzanne-Somers-Uses-Ste...

The world is changing. Our luck is improving. In the future, people may be able to have the kinds of health problems I have had and remain stock.

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Tags: breast, cancer, cells, health, hip, luck, replacement, stem

Comment by Jonathan Wolfman on April 30, 2014 at 9:18am

Bless you and your courage. 

Comment by JMac1949 Today on April 30, 2014 at 9:46am

I did full blown knee surgery twenty years ago with a patella transplant to reconstruct an ACL.  Nerve damage was very noticeable for the first few years then slowly feeling returned so that now I'd estimate a 95-98% recovery.  R&R ;-)

Comment by Arthur James on April 30, 2014 at 12:50pm

`

I sell You a VAMC aluminum Walker

With Two-Wheels. You're Luck Might

Run Out. Let's Hope Not. It's Bent, and

There's still a few brown winter Oak Tree

Leaves Stuck on the Bent Aluminum Frame.

Sell on e-Bah? Place in the Bach of P.U. .

Cops see Old Antique Walker and Never Do

Haul You to Jail. If Cop Stop For Dodging

Rural & DC Pot Holes & Threaten Ya With

A ` DUI? Begin Bawling. Offer Cop Jug

Of ` Raw Goat Milk  and`  Waddel's Dairy

Non-Pasterized Cow, Non Homogenized,

PA's Milk. Cops still accept Good Bribes.

I Loathe that VAMC Walker. Physiologist

Offer me a new Black Walker with Seat,

and Basket to Haul ` Fat Tire & DeClaws

SweetBabyJesus! Ugh` Cold Brew. huh?

Give SweetBabyJesus! `  Beer to `Rabbi?

I took the bent Walker out of P.U. and it's

stored in the barn. I refused the VAMC's

new Black Walker. I hate wasting money.

italics are acting weird. Sleep Inn investigates

source of Inn's ` WIFI ' HACKS. Whatever ... 

Comment by Lois Wickstrom on April 30, 2014 at 12:55pm

Arthur -- you travel fast enough on your walker to get a ticket!  Wow!

Comment by Arthur James on April 30, 2014 at 1:22pm

`

LOUIS ( KEYS STINK )...

I drive with the VAMC

Walker in the back of

the ` Pickup Truck.

Cops ask if I can

Walk a Straight

Line. I say` No.

`

Cop ask ` Why?

I say` "I got shot."

Then, cop calls

for a backup.

Honest...

It happened

once. Hai -

his real name -

Hai is the husband

of Kim Doan -

`

She was ` Tricked"

by lawyers in PA.

Waynesboro, PA

Kim lost` Health,

a Home, and Who'd

steal back a PA Washer

Dryer` Laundromat?

`

Visit ` nice Cops &

the Magistrate in PA.

Magistrate has the scoop.

FBI met Kim Doan & me

in Waybesboro, Police

Station. Later. I got

arrested in a bank.

DoJ don't give hoot.

They like bird` Owls.

They cold give a ` Hoot.

I tired of mentioning` it.

DA's dead. My probation

officer is dead. I was so-so

Tricked too. I was drugged

in a Saloon too. I didn't

know I was given a drug

until on my Home my P.U.

was dizzy. A Oak tree hopped

out in front of me. I had 1 & 1/2

Beers ( frauds said they were DoJ),

and hit  that Oak Tree. I learned

later, after another ` dose ' of

some ` potent ' mixture ` Truth.

I was told` "Beware. It best to

be a living lion, and not a

dead dog." I have a mass

load of Outhouse Lawyer

Briefs. I swear there are

Evil Incarnations. EVIL.

FBO apologized - BOSS?

Chertoff & John Ashcroft

Thanks... vent is healthy.

Clear? Walker got bent

in pickup crash. Poor

Tree. True Story . . .

Comment by Arthur James on April 30, 2014 at 1:34pm

`

Gads

not FOB

but, FBI

Guess what?

Judge Walker?

His Real Name:

He charged me

$250.00 for the

days court transcripts.

I have all paper work.

I use to Xerox and hand

carry to DC politicians.

One day alone I lost

$10,000 trying to

forestall a illegal

foreclosure. The

Seller of the Slum

Laundromat and

apartments was

a local lawyer.

Name? hush.

The bank loan

officer QUIT.

I use to get

anonoymous

QUIT e-mails.

from where?

White House?

I showed FBI's

Philly Agent

`

Sonny ( alias )

I saw Sonny's

gun under his

blazer jacket.

on / and on . . .

I forgot what else.

I was gonna say?

The Solicitor for

GOP Mike Fisher

Wrote fancy bank

loan paperwork...

sad...

Justice? No research

bank fraud and the

sad hiding of many

foreclosure ` Deceits.

No lawyer would ` dare

'touch the case' and I

had to stand up to

Franklin County;

Pa` commonwealth's

District Attorney. Sigh.

He died. R.I.P. Peace.

FBI knows all` bout it!

Comment by Lois Wickstrom on April 30, 2014 at 2:13pm

Arthur -- congratulations on surviving. Yes, living lions are way fiercer than dead dogs.

Comment by Arthur James on May 1, 2014 at 5:30am

`

Lois Wickstrom

`

... somehow we survive . . .

If you in town? Visit too?

Bring spouse? He use the

Hot Tub & play the ` Air

Electric Sitar? O, tease...

We best be somber, and

teasing can be big trouble.

I read your links. Please?

If You eat links here at

Sleep Inn - You burp 7-Up.

The link sausage is Lard.

The links are microwaved.

Links ought be used on foe?

I saw You loitering here too.

I getting odd stuff happening.

I mean no dare ask` kosher

salami. He in woods? Pick?

Maybe he hunt for morels.

My deleted blog @ OS

had photos of the early

Spring black fungi morel.

I'll stay siege on, but I not

here. I visit` gin Later. I

guy buy ` Nibble With

Gibbles `Lard Chips...

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