Change is in the air, and in the cosmos. Life altering, big bang, here’s your karma kind of change. I think most of us see change as a big splashy thing, dramatic for good or ill, something that brings us to the front and makes us noticed. I know that’s what I always saw, changing my home or my job or my school hoping for better friends and more excitement and a road to glamour. It’s all I’ve talked about for the past year, when I can leave my job and buy an RV and go find adventure. At the same time, though, I have been feeling a real pull in a different direction.

This house that I live in has a real grip on me, I find myself asking what would be so horrible about staying here. Yes, it’s boring, but I know people who leave town every weekend. People who don’t have pets, of course, but I could probably find someone who works for the vet who would be willing to throw food in bowls and clean the litterbox. I could finally clean up the inside and make it look like the outside. And there has to be SOMEONE in this town who mows lawns for cash, which would free me up to garden.

I could also stay with my current employer until I’m 60, 5 ½ more years, which would give me the full pension instead of 64%; hopefully they won’t change the rules on us again. My house will be paid off the year I turn 62. Surely between then and now I can find a way to escape for the winter? Or at least for January and February. Or have a better plan for a permanent move. I am really not ready to move on now.

I played my clarinet yesterday, I remembered a lot and can still hit the high notes. My technique is lacking but of course it will after 30 years of not playing. I was pleasantly surprised, I just now need to make time to practice. Rather, take time to practice. I have gotten out of the habit of being industrious, 16 years of sitting around waiting for something to do 40 hours a week can kill initiative.

I haven’t made any headway on the painting yet but astrology has karmic destiny days coming up soon, I am going to plan those four days very carefully. A kick off, as it were.

I’m finding it very interesting that my “change” is to not run anymore. It is a dramatic change, for me. Let’s just hope it’s a good one.

Here are the kittens on the same piece of furniture, using it in their preferred ways. Medjet always wraps her tail around the bench.


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Comment by nerd cred on March 16, 2017 at 5:29pm

You could still have an RV and explore, with the cats and the dog, maintaining a home base, staying home during gardening times.

You sound in a very positive frame of mind. It's great to see.

Comment by tr ig on March 16, 2017 at 5:43pm

Medjet thinks he has a prehensile tail, and maybe he does.

Surely between then and now I can find a way to escape for the winter? Of course you can. The pets really are like a lead weight tho, an albatross as they say. We were fresh out of pets. It was sad but I was celebrating, because exactly that, we were free to travel, but no. Now we're stuck again, unless like you said, petsitters, and then you worry. She does I mean. But to have a house to call home for home base, for me, is absolutely necessary and feels good, secure. The clarinet, awesome. They travel well right? Imagine yourself, January in Mazatlan, watching the stars, playing mood music, Pied Pipering the native men and animals.

Comment by tr ig on March 16, 2017 at 5:48pm

oops .. her, MedJet

Comment by Foolish Monkey on March 16, 2017 at 6:09pm

I always fantacize about traveling with Team Bozo but theyre big and noisy and I worry about something unexpected happening. Plus after traveling across the country with a super smart american bulldog who never barked and two Senegal parrots whose screams busted eardrums I learned how much time you spend with them and when yore even out having breakfast, they re on your mind - getting them fed, to the toilet, how people want to pet them or worse allergic or hate them. the vacation becomes about them. 

As soon as I'm mobile were going to find someone to do dog walking and sitting. Or a good kennel. Not a perfect solution but necessary if were going to go on even a little vaca and not think about anything but us 

With pensions grab it as soon as you can. same with social security. get it while its there and enjoy it while you can. 

No house is perfect. But its yours. I love the look of your home. When I look at it it feels very loved. like your crazy cats. They re tender little babies. :)

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Comment by Phyllis on March 17, 2017 at 7:20am

Hi nerd, gardening times are good for exploring, though. I wouldn't be going often so I could maintain both.

tr ig, they are, but I need them. Indiana guys aren't made for me, it seems. Dad said Wednesday that even in high school I had an aura of class around me that put the guys off, believe me that it wasn't on purpose. It dovetailed into my thinking from a few days earlier, though, that I just don't fit in with the football and beer crowd. I missed my chance those first two years in college... I have to google Mazatlan

Monkey, you know the joys, then. :) It is hard to travel with pets but I'm hoping that the RV makes it easier. I want to fit it with a solar powered AC so that people aren't breaking the windows to "save" the cats.

Hi, JMac.

Comment by Phyllis on March 17, 2017 at 9:32am

Kage, the world has changed a lot, hasn't it. I'm not sure why we need this many people. I had those same dreams in college but my parents crashed that for me by moving to another state and taking all of my money with them, so I had to follow. Nothing has ever really gone right for me except owning this house. Weird. I hope keeping the house lets the rest of it work.


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