One look at Margaret told me she should always be with me, and that settled down a lot of my mental health problems tremendously I gotta say.

Until I got stuck at the role of dude living with mom...I yearned for true parental authority but was afraid to claim it . I didn't want to startle the kids...I love them all but they are VERY fragile it seems to my 48 yr old innocent mind.

So I showed weakness by having a startling breakdown that lasted a week and involved trips to a mental hospital vacation spot known as Dublin Springs . The Willows section, between the Maples (the truly psychotic) and the Meadows (the drunks and druggies).

Willows , it was explained to me one shoeless day (no strings allowed), was for your run of the mill mood disorders. There were maybe 2 or 3 seriously wounded souls, but we mothered them back to health.

Mental hospitals truly can be a place of immense spiritual and mental emotional healing. Plus it is a profitable business. We were even allowed to smoke.

I came back to the kids, who now saw I was human all too human. It invested me with enormous power: they now had faith I spoke from great suffering, and they themselves knew that language only too well already...

I came back to Margaret, whom I now saw in a new light due to her dear devotion to my health and happiness during my mental crisis...she is now the sun at the center of my universe, I am her moon, we rule the earth again. Or finally.

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Comment by Rosigami on August 31, 2015 at 12:33pm

So glad to hear that a difficult time has resulted in some very positive outcomes. 

Comment by koshersalaami on August 31, 2015 at 12:33pm
Breakdown? Glad it's over. Everyone ok with you?
Comment by Arthur James on August 31, 2015 at 12:46pm

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Lettuce hope? 

koshersaalami?

Con C . helps?

& folks no

have Pan's

Visitation

& Break-

Down-

& Bah-

Crack-

UPSA?

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I on way to

Farm with a 

6-pack of 

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Truth Beer / no\

tease... hope so\

koshersaalami &\

alsoknoass well?

no- jest -\- well?

Be well & honest?

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Comment by James Mark Emmerling on August 31, 2015 at 12:50pm

he is drinking again, fellas.

another six pack is absconded with.

He hopes no ''Pan breakdown''.

None planned, Arthur.

the title of the piece explains a certain cast of mind too. finally I am in my right mind.

Comment by James Mark Emmerling on August 31, 2015 at 12:51pm

kosher nobody knew it was happening.

rosi it rented the veil.

Comment by JMac1949 Today on August 31, 2015 at 12:59pm

Yuz know yuz got to stay on tops o' dis thang.  Iz yuz checkin' in on a regular basis wit a shrink?  Heaven and Hell is where we live... gots to continue to shape dem environs.

Comment by James Mark Emmerling on August 31, 2015 at 1:03pm

dem environs environmentally polluted by shrinks who got pharmaceuticals on the brain with minimal non assertive attempts to do a weakass watered down version of thrpr\y. real thrpy where ya mouth off and the still room erupts in magnificent raw emotion that travels from person to person in a wave of immense energy..none of that anymore sigh.

Comment by alsoknownas on August 31, 2015 at 1:10pm

It's not quite accurate to say that nobody knew.

Perhaps you mean that you didn't write about it at the time.

Sort of predictable though.

Tight shoe laces make one's feet swollen.

Loafers are the answer.

This is from my book of aphorisms.

Comment by JMac1949 Today on August 31, 2015 at 1:11pm

Dats a big part o checkin' in.  Group T is a trial, but it provides a stage... hang in dere ma man.

Comment by James Mark Emmerling on August 31, 2015 at 1:52pm

why ya talkin like a mug, yah mug? i will go to therapy when they drag me off there.

i like a stage for sure. maybe i will hold off on that. go and check it out. what do i gots to lose eh? i just dont wanna find out anything too traumatic about myself. i am going to learn EVERYTHING. they can see in side yuo, these sleeveless attractive therapists bosomy and warm...

the guys are teddy bears, the male therapists.

the dr scampers around in a suit and tie. he has administrative control.

as the son of an administrator, i was  raised t o administrate

so i get a little transference on him, dr mohammed ahmed. a slight man of silver framed glasses and white goatee. muslim?

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