a tiny little show and the story of FAIL!

The first three are in the works - the last of them is a major fail that I keep beating to shit...I don't think it's finished although it might be because I may have killed the shit out of it.   

I've actually liked it in each incarnation but the next day I look and I think "UGH".  I KNOW that's because the color sinks and it will be fine when I varnish...but if I'm honest, there's SOMEthing missing so I keep beating it. ("fine" never works for me.)  (if I don't think it's extraordinary in some way, I will keep looking for the extraordinary until I think I hit it.  even if it means total destructo.)  I SHOULD start another painting - that's what I SHOULD do. 

so you see, I KNOW what to do.  I just don't do it.  

this first is an old self portrait that I had liked but never finished, then some years later, I threw a glaze over it, but got screwed up in the glaze drying stage, so it went into a corner for about 35 years and I forgot about it until every time we moved.  recently I stumbled on it again and said to myself, "self, you can do something with this." and put it in a closer corner to not forget it.   last week I pulled it out of the corner and after looking at Munch, decided I should be a vampire.  so here we go.  vampyre.  woop!

I like it a lot.  I hope I don't fuck it up. I find Munch very helpful. 

this is a larger canvas - it's a healthy size - not huge...I used to paint gigantic canvases and spent a fortune on paint but no more although it looks like I might be working my way up again. 

anyway this one's an ode to Frank Mason who I studied with for a little while (look him up - particularly his still lifes) (yummy).  he was a great painter - not really my style - too baroque and fussy but damn, he was all about the brushwork and studying with him in vermont was like taking a drama class....really.  I got to share a ski chalet with a bunch of painters for a month...total drama junkies, total fun, a mess of artsy people are always very sexy.  no sex to speak of but...okay....fun.  I need to take a better picture...I was getting a lot of reflective light so color and detail is lost. 

THE FOLLOWING IS NOT A GOOD PAINTING. Although it might be.  I might have to scrub off everything and start again.  I might stick it in a corner and hide it from myself.  

I like this today.

latest version - subject to change

BELOW: other versions from earliest to the one before this one or something...there have been about 10 different versions going from loose to tigher and crazier.  I don't think I mind that but I don't know...I'm looking for SOMEthing...when it happens I know.  I might have stormed right past "it" with this one though. 

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Comment by Jonathan Wolfman on February 6, 2018 at 1:12pm

:)  :)    

Comment by Foolish Monkey on February 6, 2018 at 1:16pm

thanks jon.  :D

Comment by Rosigami on February 6, 2018 at 1:21pm

I love love love how you do your process. SO intense! 
And I adore your style(s). How you use color. Just gorgeous. Your self portrait as vampire, omfg. No, I don't see a vampire, but instead a very intense and beautiful woman, stopped in her tracks for a single moment, the air absolutely vibrating around her. Everything electric. It's wonderful. 

Comment by Foolish Monkey on February 6, 2018 at 1:26pm

oh my.  thank you rosi!

  my process is deadly though.  I am the terminator!  I'll get that one - I swear I will.   

Comment by koshersalaami on February 6, 2018 at 5:11pm

I really like the self portrait. What did you do to it that makes you think of a vampire?

Comment by Foolish Monkey on February 6, 2018 at 5:19pm

Its about the ominous mood via the colors. also look up munch's vampire paintings. 

This isn't referencing conventional movie vampires but the intense soul less powet that comes via youth beauty sex. love is tough. 

Comment by Foolish Monkey on February 6, 2018 at 5:26pm

Its about an ominous mood via color and the shadow.  also look up munch's vampire paintings. 

This isn't referencing conventional movie vampires but the intense soul less power that comes via youth beauty sex. love is tough on the young especially believers. 

Comment by Foolish Monkey on February 6, 2018 at 5:27pm

Thanks kosh. :)

Comment by koshersalaami on February 6, 2018 at 5:31pm

I just looked them up. I get the ominousness. Apparently, Munch insisted that the paintings were about a kiss on the neck - a critic came up with the name. 

Comment by Ron Powell on February 6, 2018 at 5:40pm

Excellent!

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