A couple of years ago, I noticed that I would just wince psychologically when thinking about any mistake in my life ever, past or present. I want to always continually grow to be a better person, so my flaw meter is turned up pretty high.
But I realized this perfectionism can have a very destructive side. I still felt embarrassment for every mistake I had made, even decades ago! Wouldn't it be better for me to just try to forget these things?
I thought that, once my life is over, I will never think of my problems again. All matters of this life will be over, permanently. No matter how important it seems now, no one will ever care about it, or even know about it. Even a TV movie seems to retain more reality. At least the movie is recorded, and thousands can see it. Many events of our personal life are as fleeting as one leaf blown in the wind in today's yard.
Despite my best efforts, I can still make serious mistakes. Horrible things can happen, problems can seem to intractable. I know that I want to do my best. But, beyond that, why remain all upset about something that no one else even knows about, and no one will ever care about again, once I am dead?
Isn't it best to spend my precious remaining time in life doing something constructive in the present?