I am no longer in the fishbowl.
The fishbowl being my term for life as a cancer patient. An invisible thing, but a barrier separating you from those who are not experiencing anything close to what you are experiencing. It even has a distorting effect on how you see the world much like a fishbowl would.
Patients themselves seem to be aware that we are not one lump of generalized experience; we each have our own fishbowls, and we ask about each others' experiences knowing they…Continue
The intensity plus duration of elation--pure happiness--stayed with me throughout work yesterday.
I told one of the first coworkers I saw that morning, "Today's my last day of treatment."
She was elated for me. "Congratulations!" She understood where I was in that moment. Her mother went through cancer.
I posted it on Facebook. (14…Continue
Tomorrow I begin week 5 out of 6 weeks of radiation therapy. This is the last week of the "full range" radiation, then next week, it's just a "boost"--where the beam is less penetrating and supposedly less damaging. I'm not sure why they call it a "boost", you would expect something called "boost" would be more intense, not less.
Maybe it is more intense. These doctors have a habit of playing up the best qualities of a therapy like it's no big deal--even fun. Like the fact…Continue