I know that changing things is very difficult. You just need to start something. Anything. Anything that you can do right now.
The first step is almost always the most difficult. Once you have started, you will be able to move on and go further. You will see more possibilities, more things that you can do. But just taking that first step is the most difficult.
Chances are you fuction better at certain times or in certain locations or under other very specific…Continue
Added by Ariose Osciola on December 5, 2012 at 4:30pm — No Comments
I don’t fit anyone’s political platform. If you can label me, more power to you. I try to write on many things. I often find it hard to convey a complete thought when writing, so it takes me a long time to write things; If you dont understand something I write please ask me to clarify and I will do…Continue
Perhaps it is just the lazy way out. I will admit to that much. I have a decent size yard. It isn’t an acreage but it isn’t a postage stamp yard like I see some places. My black Lab, Max, has enough room to roam the bushes of our back yard and chase an occasional squirrel that ventures out of the trees. We have four Live Oaks, two Dwarf Magnolias, two Post Oaks, three Crape Myrtles, a Redbud, and a Bradford Pear scattered along my perimeter fence. Mixed in…Continue
I have gone through some difficult periods myself recently. I would like to reflect on some of what I learned.
You need to fix your life as best as you can. Change is very traumatic at first. You need to have as much stability as possible before trying to change anything. Too much change can backfire quickly. Major changes involve an extended period of down time where you need to keep the rest of your life as stable as possible.
I tried to do too much, pushed…Continue
Added by Ariose Osciola on December 1, 2012 at 6:00pm — No Comments
I know you are sick. I know that is very scary. I have been there before.
Try to relax and calm down. Try to just rest at first. This is most likely temporary. Your life will grow better in time.
When you are sick, you need to heal. You need to relax and let both your body and your mind heal yourself. No one can do that for you. People may be able to help you with that, but you really need to heal yourself.
Healing is not the same as treatment.…Continue
Added by Ariose Osciola on December 1, 2012 at 6:00pm — No Comments
We had another blow up last night. At least once a month, we call her on her bullshit and she rages and storms and cries and stomps off. This time, it was pay day and somehow not much money. I made her father ask to see the paycheck stub, and physically pry money out of her hands. She makes tips for pocket money, and still does not have to pay for any food or toiletries herself. Still, somehow, she pisses away money faster than she gets it. He got $150 out of $285, she cried about that…Continue
It’s been 34 months since we last spent the night in Providence Hospital, an enviable streak for the chronically broken among us.
We busted the streak Wednesday.
Caregiver Nykkie came in that morning about 7 a.m. and rousted me from a deep sleep, from a sleep aided by one of the few mornings cold enough in central Texas to cool down my sheets. It had been a good sleep.
Nykkie gently poked my bare shoulder and said, “I’m sorry, but I don’t think Marty feels…Continue
I was in a position where I couldn't access the internet daily . Also, some browser told me that my gmail was "redirecting" and then could never ever ever complete, or some such thing.
I figured I couldn't write anything and just let it lie there . What if I got a lovely comment or two and just wouldn't respond. I silently hoped that OS would revive itself. There is no reason, that so many of us might understand, why it had to flounder and then die( or "pass" as everyone now says as…Continue
In the letting go and moving on, I have found myself rather bored. This is not new and it is not particular to the recent situation. My neurons have become habituated to the constant input, the influx of daily chatter, trauma, drama, gossip, complaint and lament. My ear cells are still slightly strained to hear signals from my phone that a message has arrived, my eye cells tuned to scan the name of incoming texts and emails, my tensed muscles are letting go but still tightening here and…Continue
Having been deployed on two twelve month tours to Afghanistan, a yearlong tour in Iraq, a few months in Kuwait and twenty six months in South Korea, I would say I have experienced a lot more than many other Americans with respect to freedom, how fortunate we are in the US and how [why] we put our lives on the line. I am not at all claiming I am an expert, but have unique experiences many people only read or hear stories about.…Continue
For years I've played mind games. 1, 2, 3, oops, 1, 2, 3, oops. Or, obsessing in the mirror over it.
Counting. Messing up the count.
Staring. Always finding something else "wrong".
Feeling. All sorts of emotions, mostly anger after having done it.
These are games I play, obsessive compulsive games.
I'm 33 and I still pull out my hair.
Somewhere in all this time I've managed to stop, but I think it was when I was a kid and I was distracted.…Continue
The Time Has Come
Some of you may have noticed that I talk a lot. You may also have noticed that I have a tendency to wear a topic into the ground at times. What you may not have noticed is that there comes a time when talking is done, and it is time to do. That time has arrived,…
It’s a contest, a test, a test of endurance.
Chronic illness is the supreme test of what a human can stand, what they can endure and still live a satisfactory life. There is nothing fancy about it, nothing heroic about it; it’s persevering through the awful, hanging in through the grim, being dogged in living, and ultimately enduring what life brings.
Years ago one of our good friends father contracted cancer. Our friend, as he watched his father endure chemotherapy, said…Continue
We waited for the call, knowing it would come soon. Thursday, Marty’s brother Jerry, called and said their mother, Jean, had passed away early that morning in her sleep. Jean had been sick for a long time; Jean had a long trip home.
I waited for a while and told Marty about her Mom as we ate lunch. She knew it was coming, we had talked about what was going on, still the news clearly startled her. The reality and the overall sadness of the loss of her mother came over her all at…Continue
Added by Marty'sHusband on October 22, 2012 at 11:00am — No Comments
I have been pregnant for over two years now. I was impregnated by my ex-husband and his wife. It’s not a typical pregnancy. Although I do get to feel it move, especially in the morning, but I don’t get any parties or get to set up a room with cute little baby stuff because this thing refuses to be born. It sucks the life out of me and a lot of nutrients, like iron and raises cortisol levels and causes lots of new…Continue
Added by Patience on September 1, 2012 at 1:00pm — No Comments
The weather was calm and cool Sunday morning as I began my hour and a half drive to The Strand. I was imagining overcast or mostly cloudy skies and a sea breeze wind to cool my 13.1 mile run up and down the seawall. However--the weather of the last few days threatened rain, concerns of lightning might delay the start of the race, and I wondered what it would take to stop everything entirely—hoping that would not happen.
Mild drizzle turned to a moderate rain as I crossed the I-45…Continue
Added by Jewellya on February 8, 2012 at 11:30am — No Comments
It was my birthday and I was slow to get out of bed as the grey morning light filtered through the gauzy curtains, but I had a promise to keep.
Alone in the house, I was in no hurry to get my running clothes together, but neither was I lethargic at the task. Today is the first day of Act II of the Life of Julia. Eager, I am, to set the pace for the next thirty…Continue
Added by Jewellya on January 16, 2012 at 11:00am — No Comments