I was awake all night last night with a flu that had infected my ears and inflamed my throat. I spent the night attempting to never swallow. Swallowing was such an intensely painful experience that I spent the next 10 minutes in recovery mode. On top of this physical misery, my mind layered on a thick coating of remembered trauma and guilt.…
My eyes wide with shock, I find myself nodding agreement and murmuring assent.
His words still falling, scraping against my soul.
Of course I understand,
Mom is just closer to you two than she is to me.
Why would I think otherwise?
You’re right. It’s my fault.
Your reasons are new to me.
I don’t visit her enough, my daughter (the one she denied for the first 2 decades) doesn’t visit her…Continue
I'm at home today with an acutely sprained back and marching orders from the doctor to rest, ice and medicate
I've been feeling a little lost and the gentle lecture from the doctor about the absolute necessity for losing weight and getting healthy provoked an antagonistic reaction. I turned into a two year old whose ice cream has just been taken away. Although I agreed politely and nodded my head enthusiastically, my inner threenager was raging.
Hobbling duck-like down the hall…Continue
Pain, like a river, flows down my leg.
Icy rivulets drool down my thigh tricking me into a fruitless search for a visible spreading stain.
Like a river in winter it freezes my joints and shards of burning ice grate sluggishly on their winter path.…Continue