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Myriad commented on Zul's blog post I know what forgiveness tastes like
"God.  Can you forgive HER?  I wouldn't.  Sounds like you've reached a place of caring for yourself.  So sorry you endured that - at the time and afterwards."
Jan 28, 2016
moki ikom commented on Zul's blog post I know what forgiveness tastes like
""I thought the mask over my face was the cause of my oxygen starvation "  this is funny  "It wasn't until my daughter was 5 that I wondered how hard someone would have to hit a 5 year old to knock them to the ground…"
Jan 27, 2016
alsoknownas commented on Zul's blog post I know what forgiveness tastes like
"JMac just slam dunked it."
Jan 27, 2016
nerd cred commented on Zul's blog post I know what forgiveness tastes like
"Jeezes - at least my worst beatings were hushed up and never became funny family stories. Yes, this is awesome and yes, "...if I could forgive myself..." is so completely backwards. You don't always have to forgive no matter what…"
Jan 27, 2016
Safe Bet's Amy commented on Zul's blog post I know what forgiveness tastes like
"::Hugs::  "
Jan 27, 2016
Foolish Monkey commented on Zul's blog post I know what forgiveness tastes like
"meanness is a form of pure unadulterated crazy.  eventually, you grow to hate them, these mean people that love inflicting pain.  so they willfully inspire hatred of them.  who does that?  makes people hate them?  crazy…"
Jan 27, 2016
DaisyJane commented on Zul's blog post I know what forgiveness tastes like
"wow, zul.  with a mom like that, who needs enemies?  i hope you forgiving yourself sticks, and that you can even forgive her.   creamsicles are delicious."
Jan 27, 2016
Zul commented on JMac1949 Today's blog post Trig's Open Call - What Is On My Bookshelf
"I love this! I have bookcases all over with so many books. I used the Marie Kondo test ' Does it spark joy?' to let go of more than half, but I still have so many. The most important books I have are all together on one shelf. I think of…"
Jan 27, 2016
tr ig commented on Zul's blog post I know what forgiveness tastes like
"Wow .. antibiotics and a soft diet and creamsicles and ... time .. heals. But sorry about your mom, beating you to near death then not having time to bring the puppy blanket. "
Jan 27, 2016
Julie Johnson commented on Zul's blog post I know what forgiveness tastes like
"A 'like' is not enough.  This was awesome..."
Jan 27, 2016
Phyllis commented on Zul's blog post Betrayed, again. By my own heart
"I'm sorry I missed this. I hope you had a good holiday."
Dec 28, 2015
koshersalaami commented on Zul's blog post Betrayed, again. By my own heart
"Damn No one deserves that"
Oct 23, 2015
M. C. Sears commented on Zul's blog post Betrayed, again. By my own heart
"This is so sad."
Oct 23, 2015
Zanelle commented on Zul's blog post Playing for my life
"Fat, Sick and Nearly Dead"
Jun 11, 2015
Zanelle commented on Zul's blog post Playing for my life
"Great photos...so sorry for your pain.  I found an inspiring video on Netflix called something like...Sick, Fat and Almost Dead.  It was about a guy who drank green smoothies only and traveled around the states for six months and cured…"
Jun 11, 2015
Zul commented on Rosigami's blog post Yet Another Set of Mandalas (Series 3)
"These are gorgeous a soothing path for consciousness."
Jun 11, 2015

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I know what forgiveness tastes like

Posted on January 27, 2016 at 6:00pm 10 Comments



 I was awake all night last night with a flu that had infected my ears and inflamed my throat. I spent the night attempting to never swallow. Swallowing was such an intensely painful experience that I spent the next 10 minutes in recovery mode. On top of this physical misery, my mind layered on a thick coating of remembered trauma and guilt.…



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Betrayed, again. By my own heart

Posted on October 23, 2015 at 4:00pm 6 Comments

My eyes wide with shock, I find myself nodding agreement and murmuring assent.

His words still falling, scraping against my soul.

 “Of course”

Of course I understand,

Mom is just closer to you two than she is to me.

Of Course.

Why would I think otherwise?

You’re right. It’s my fault.

 

Your reasons are new to me.

I don’t visit her enough, my daughter (the one she denied for the first 2 decades) doesn’t visit her…

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Playing for my life

Posted on June 11, 2015 at 1:30pm 4 Comments

I'm at home today with an acutely sprained back and marching orders from the doctor to rest, ice and medicate

I've been feeling a little lost and the gentle lecture from the doctor about the absolute necessity for losing weight and getting healthy provoked an antagonistic reaction. I turned into a two year old whose ice cream has just been taken away. Although I agreed politely and nodded my head enthusiastically, my inner threenager was raging.

Hobbling duck-like down the hall…

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Pain, Like a river

Posted on May 28, 2015 at 6:25pm 7 Comments

Pain, like a river, flows down my leg.

Icy rivulets drool down my thigh tricking me into a fruitless search for a visible spreading stain.

Like a river in winter it freezes my joints and shards of burning ice grate sluggishly on their winter path.…

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