This post is for me. Excuse the grammar and anything else wrong with this post. These are just words I need to type out because I have nowhere else to say or write them. I don't want sympathy. I don't want advice. I just want to say them with the hope that I can in some way put them in order in my mind.
3 years ago my husband had a brutal affair. It ended and he moved 8 hours away. Sorry for what he had done. Determined to prove that he was a person to be trusted. I never filed…Continue
I put my beautiful baby Swazye down on Saturday. Another giant hole in my life. It was time, he told me with his eyes. He didn't want to go and fought his weak heart until the end.
I will miss you beautiful boy. You were a kind and loyal friend.…Continue
It was one year to the very day that I picked up this special man in my life that my husband announced his affair and his girl friends pregnancy.
Man, what a journey since February I've been on. Very close on several occasions to just giving up on everything.
But there was always one constant in my life, those eyes, one brown and one blue. He watched me, he slept next to me, many times stroking my face as I lay there unable to sleep. If I sat he sat in my lap, if I bathed…Continue
Vacation? A time to relax? It's been a year of pure Hell. Left by my husband, harassed daily by the bi-polar alcoholic he chose over me. Watching her take over my part in a life we created over 17 years. Left alone to care for our little farm, horses to care for, 35…Continue