I’m noticing a pattern in my life.
I get lonely, because I am so odd and get so tired of repeating my faults and history to newcomers into my life, and I work myself into a lather over these things, and I find myself staring at the ceiling every night, recounting all of my issues. I think to myself, apparently, you are one of those people who is meant to just… be alone. Not just in the romantic sense, but in every sense. Yes, I have a daughter now, but she’ll go one day. And that’s…Continue
I started a job back in December, and it's not going very well. I work with middle school kids who are emotionally-/behaviorally-disturbed. They're all boys. Lastly, one in particular hates yours truly, the "fucking fat white bitch", of which he calls me on average of ten times a day. Does administration do anything, even though they've witnessed this? Of course not. On top of that, this position results in me working with a total grab-bag of kids who have a wide array of challenges,…Continue
The following thought hit me a few mornings ago as I was about to head out for work, and it was so sudden, like a terrible itch you want to scratch, that I had to write it down as it popped into my head:
"The problem with meeting new people, if you get close to them, is you have to do soul-searching and decide at which point you deem appropriate to disclose that you've been molested and raped. It's not for the faint of heart, and it's not something you can just offhandedly mention.…Continue
I started substitute teaching back on 8/26. Right now, they have me in a middle school, teaching emotionally disturbed teenagers Science. Every day is a new adventure. I also moved into a new place about a month and a half ago. It was bought, although I will be paying off my mom from having bought it for me, amongst other money she loaned me during my unemployment period. I'm going to have a hard time tying things together because I'm beat... bear with me.
I feel very fragile…Continue